From the road. Dispatch # i

Hey. Great to see you again. How’ve you been? Is so-n-so coming this year? Is there space left on top of the bus for my bike?
Here’s some cold beer from where I’m from. Thanks. Here’s a Busch light. Cool.
What’s going on with you? How’s it been?
Lots of rain in June.
I heard so-n-so isn’t coming. Well, shit. Won’t be the same without so-n-so.
Well, Ragbrai is never the same as last year, so…
Bags and bins are in the trailer. Bikes are on the bus.
New blood is mingling with old blood.
This is Ragbrai day -2.

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T -1 to vaca

Busy packing and prepping tonight for Ragbrai. It’s funny how I’ve been prepping myself mentally and spiritually for weeks. And I was more ready a week or a few days ago than I am tonight. Weird. Had a lot on my mind today that sort of twisted my mindset away from the zen of Ragbrai.
No worries. Nothing that a nice road trip won’t fix.
And a few hours on a stinky fun bus.
And a few hundred miles in the saddle.
Hey everybody. Look forward to dispatches from the road from here on out!

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Does Facebook count?

I once asked my writing professor if Facebook counts for my assignment to write daily. He said, flatly, no. I don’t think he understood the elegance and creativity with which my Facebook posts are filled. He couldn’t possibly have understood how much of my juice was in those posts.
And anyway he’s not here right now. I’ll bet I’ve spent an hour or two writing brilliant sentences on Facebook tonight.
Have I written? Hell yeah. I’ve written at least a thousand words tonight.
Plus there’s this post.
Night y’all…

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And I think it’s kinda funny; I think it’s kinda sad

Isn’t it funny how the thing that others need most from us is the thing that we also need most to be? It’s like a musician who needs to play music to feel alive. Her music is also the thing that others need most from her. So they, too, can feel alive. A welder who loves to weld, who needs to weld. What do others need from that welder? Welding, of course.
That’s how I am with writing. I haven’t yet convinced myself that writing is like air – that I’ll die if I don’t write. I am glacially, though, admitting to myself that I must be a writer if I am to be as alive as I am meant to be.
But enough about me. What do you think of my writing?

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Poppy wants dinner and petting and to be on the sofa

A dog doesn’t want much as far as we know.  Dinner.  Pets.  Lounging on human furniture.  At first glance, it seems that for a mute with no opposable thumbs and no command of any human language, the dog is pretty good at getting what it wants from us.  If I couldn’t talk or understand english and if you cut off my thumbs, I’d have a pretty hard time getting food, affection, and a comfy seat.

But then what if dogs actually want way more than those things.  What if Poppy also wants to be understood?  Or to have a dog companion?  What if she wants to see Europe or go on a mission trip to Africa?  She has no way of communicating any of that.  So what I see as happiness an contentment may be simple resignation to a life of never experiencing live music or bowling.

When i started this post I was admiring how skilled the dog is at getting what she wants given her physical limitations.  By the time I got to this point I realized I might have it backwards.  Damn dog will never achieve her dreams.  Unless… Unless… maybe we should take her skydiving…

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4 minutes to go

The difference this time around is that I will write every day. Not skipping 3 days then writing 4 times in a day.
Your and my compromise is that this means sometimes I will start 4 or fewer minutes before midnight.
Here is a challenge I’ve heard of before. What is the shortest story you can write? Was it Bradbury or was it Orwell who wrote the famously short story, “Baby shoes for sale. Never Used.”? Maybe it was Hemingway. Anyway, Google it and let me know.
Here’s my attempt at a freakishly short story:
Jimmy survived the war with his life but little else. He drove on the hot dusty dirt road toward his house, his woman, his boys, and his dog and everything that ever made sense before the war started. A guided sidewinder missile streaked over the next hill. Shit. He hit the gas. As he caught air over the dirt road hill, he caught sight of the 300 pound charge destroying his home. President James Harden skidded to a stop. Reached into the back seat and grabbed the suitcase. He opened the football and pushed the button. Assholes can decide if killing his family was worth atomic winter.

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Banana Leaf Tamales

New Years Eve is always fun.  Too much fun.  Always.  The price comes in the form of a foggy brain and wasted half a New Years Day.  Over the years – at least over those years – I was on a quest to feel good on New Years Day.  Tough to do when you are the life of the party.  One New Years Day twelve or so years ago in Chicago I achieved my quest.  Lunch at The Tamale Place on Rockville east of I-465 in Indianapolis reminded me of that day.  I ordered the pork in red sauce wrapped in banana leaf.  Took me back to our sweet, caring Mexican neighbors when we lived at the Green Porch Palace of Love and Liquor (GPPLL).  Maria was 70 something and Regino was a few years older than that.  They immigrated to the States in the seventies and had made a nice life on Regino’s wages as a rail worker.  They made ends meet in their retirement with pension and an abundant backyard garden.  And they knew how to have a good time.

Maria and Regino came to our New Years Eve party at the GPPLL.  It was epic.  Like all GPPLL parties.  I wore my silver PVC pants.  Need I say more?

Needless to say (though I’ll say it anyway), My lovely bride and I were completely the worse for wear the next day (remember, New Years Day).  I would have had to wait yet another year to achieve the elusive “feel good on New Years Day” if it had not been for that gorgeous knock at the door.

It was Regino. Had we been too loud after they left last night?  Was he here to give us what for?  Why was he holding a big pot?  “Hello,” said Regino in his broken English. He took of the lid and presented the contents of the pot.  I peered into the pot through the steam and saw the beautiful, rich, dark green banana leaves.  I took the pot and Regino bent down to pick up a six pack of cold Miller Lite.  Handing it to Constance, he said, “Maria said you may need these.”  And with that he bowed, smiled, walked back to his home.

We spent the next hour in silence, siting on the kitchen counter eating the best banana leaf tamales you’ve ever seen.  That Miller Lite could have won a gold medal at the Great American Beer Festival.

It felt good to eat home made tamales made with love.  I felt good on that New Years Day.

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90 posts in 90 days redux

Let’s do this again.  You know the drill.  I agree to post 90 times in the next 90 days and you agree to get on my case if I slack off.  Benefits of this agreement include some or none of the following:

  • I write
  • I feel better because I am writing
  • You get to chuckle, cry, be bored, yell at me, and/or learn something
  • You get to teach me something (you know, by commenting on my posts)
  • The world gets some unique arrangements of the alphabet and punctuation marks
  • I learn to write sentence more gooder

Why?  I know people who say writing is like air.  I’ve read about authors who say if they did not write there is no end to the despair they would feel in their lives.  I wondered if I am a real writer since I’ve never said these things.  The thing that occurred to me the other day was that when I write I feel better.  I feel, I don’t know, like I’m DOing something.  I’m putting myself in the game.  I’m living my life.  I am awake.  It doesn’t hurt that I get to receive feedback.  Mostly positive feedback. And some constructive feedback.  And when I am not writing, I feel jumbled up inside.  Like everything is not sorted.  Like there is some serious housekeeping that is going undone.  Ironically, when I am writing, literal housekeeping sometimes goes undone and that’s okay.  Because I am writing.

Anyway.

That’s why.  Enjoy the next 90 days.

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Letter to Parents and Others at St. Thomas Aquinas School

Dear St. Thomas Family,
 
With much sadness, we are letting you know that Elizabeth and Simone will not be returning to STA School next year. Our decision to leave was an intensely personal and difficult one. They are the third generation in our family to attend St. Thomas, beginning with the class of ’44!  We love St. Thomas and we will greatly miss our morning and afternoon walks to and from school.  We will also miss the teachers of STA, whose dedication and genuine care for our kids is a big part of what made STA so special.  I know the girls will miss seeing their friends every day and we will miss seeing you in the halls and in the playground before and after school.
Elizabeth and Simone will be starting fourth and first grade at St. Richards on Meridian Street.  We are very excited to join that community also, which has a number of Meridian Kessler and Butler Tarkington families.  We believe the classic curriculum at St. Richards will best prepare our girls for lifelong success and fulfillment.
Other than changing schools, we are not going anywhere.  We will still be parish members and we and the girls will continue to be in sports and clubs sponsored by the parish (or Meridian Street United Methodist or Glendale or JCC).  So, please reach out if you want to talk about anything. Really, anything.  Our decision, the future of education in America, STA School and Parish, the Pacers, existential philosophy, or just nothing.
We wish you and your families the best of luck and all the success and fulfillment in the world.
 
With warmest regards,
Steve and Constance Vinson
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The woods behind my childhood home

There’s a certain smell like dried cardboard or wet leaves.  There’s a sound like crunching twigs and sticks.  The wind rustling past the sleeping branches and newish buds.  The distant woodpecker and the closer chirping squirrel.  These are the sounds and smells of the woods behind my boyhood home.  I squinted a bit to try and see it how it looked a handful of decades ago.  The trail is a bit grown over and one of the two tall old trees that formed the gateway blew over in a storm ten years ago.  But it is still there, that trail.  We boys stomped leaves and weeds and pulled saplings and cut branches out of the way.  We drove the lawn tractor through there.  Picked the best route.  Then rode bikes, hiked, fought acorn wars, and lazed away sleepy summer days on those trails.

The brown landscape and black marshy ground remind me of where I came from.  It’s one of the few places in this world where I have no trouble remembering who I am.  The smell of decaying leaves and wet wood take me back every time.  It’s always a mixture of love, nostalgia, pain, regret, pride, tenacity, resignation, and peace.

And I guess that is what home is.  Not necessarily a house or a group of people.  But a feeling.  A sense.  No matter how crazy my world gets and no matter how far a cry I am from that little boy.  Whenever I smell those leafy smells, I am home.

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